We were able to get away for the weekend to relax and unwind. We were invited up north with some friends to 80 acres of beautiful country! We loaded up all the 4 wheelers and headed out. The fishing was great and even though it was in the middle of the day we all caught fish. With 80 acres there was plenty of room to roam on the 4 wheelers.  The guys loaded up all the guns and did some target practice, while we visited. I am kicking myself that I did not get a picture of David jumping out of the tree stand/ play house.  He tried to get me to do it but i passed on it. The matts looked cushoned enough but i had more fun watching…

It was almost time to get things packed up and we got a call from our middle some, our neighbor down the road who everyone loves had claimed his own life the news this morning is still shocking. Everyone on the road loved Jay, and we are all finding it heart breaking and confusing why he would decide to end his life. Jay was still so young,he was always ready to jump in and help you with what ever you asked him to help with. He was always driving up and down the road, passing by in his little blue truck with his dog maddie in the passenger seat. If you bought fresh veggies, he was always there to help you sack up your goodies and share a smile and even a funny story. I never seen Jay in a BAD mood, I dont think he had many of those days. He usually always had a smile on his face and something nice to say.  I just can not belive he is GONE.  He was such a  part of our neighbor hood, he was like our neighborhood watch dog.  It will be sad not to see him around anymore. It bothers my heart to think of how he must have felt so hopeless and sad inside of himself to take his life. No one should ever feel that sad or hopeless. We never saw this comming,  yet, in America suicide happens all to frequent, approx 89 people a day commit suicide. That does not account for the attemps made that left a person with a injury.   Some of the early signs could be change in mood, diet and sleep patterns. You can check out more detailed information about prevention and coping with lose at  http://www.save.org/ 

The SAVE mission is to prevent suicide through public awareness and education, reduce stigma, and serve as a resource for those touched by suicide.

In case of emergency, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK

 At times like this we are reminded how life can be way to short to be angry and bitter. It remind us to hug our kids and loved ones and tell them how much we love them. It is a time to mend the things in our life that are broken and live life as if we only have today.  R.I.P Jay…you will be missed and someday we will see you again.

 Edited on September 22nd-

It has almost been one month ago that Jay claimed his life. I spent a great deal of time thinking about this tragedy… I had some trouble understanding it.  I do not think people do this to hurt others, usually it is not in their nature to hurt others. I think for some people, Jay included, it was simply the only thing that made sense to him when he did it.  It is the ONLY thing that I can wrap my head around to understand suicide.